The Trials and Tribulations of being an irrecoverably jaded Rogue Christian

You’re reading the trials and tribulations of an irrecoverably jaded awkward Chinese boy. Let’s have tiny re-cap of what’s happened in the past few chapters of this book called Life. My high school experience can be just watched on OC except imagine it with Asians in a “highly exclusive school” and at that time one of the most expensive ones, without a beach and with perhaps funnier, more different situations. But I’ll speak of that another day. The only thing you need to know right now from form 4/10th grade I found a fantastic group of friends but even finding them had some drama to it, the characters you need to know right now are Ms. Q(she has a sort of on and off membership with The Plastics, I don’t need to explain The Plastics, right? They’re in every high school or even primary school), Ms. Indie(one of my very dear and best friends), Mr. Holland(we hung out almost everyday and I guess there are some things I wouldn’t be right now if it wasn’t for him), Ms. Klutz(another good friend who stuck with me whenever Mr. Holland and Ms. Indie got into a fight and went somewhere to have their fight thing cause they’re together and they’re perhaps the only couple who give me the hope of true love) and Mr. Family-Man(I can’t really explain what kind of person he is, I still hang out with him the most till today cause he’s the only one who is still around). This part will be relevant for later on into the story of my re-capped story.

So, we’ll continue on our re-cap of the past few chapters(A.K.A. this year) of this book. So the year(2007) started with only me, Ms. Klutz, Ms. Indie and Mr. Family-Man in the country. Pretty soon we were all busy with our own things, Ms. Klutz had family obligations going on and she was about to leave for Australia pretty soon, Ms. Indie started working(TGIF and Starbucks, as I recall), Mr. Family-Man was also pretty busy with a permenant job at Starbucks and I… was pretty much at home or at the gym(no progress) everyday, I wasn’t doing much, I admit. I was the first to start college out of those mentioned and things were pretty much cool, it was new to me, and I was pretty friendly, the person you can normally find me to be in. By semester one, I was on friendly terms with almost everyone(whether in mass comm or not). Since my high school friends were pretty much busy with their own thing, I started hanging out more and more with my new college friends, such as Mr. OC and Mr. Small-Town. Chapter Semester One was pretty much filled with late nights, the starting of smoking and friendship. Mr. Holland also came back for a short while in that chapter. It was a pretty happy chapter, even though it was the start of me changing into the people I hated in high-school but maybe we were only so hateful because we were jealous of their flawless, happy life and my high-school friends didn’t take it well but never abandoned me.

The start of chapter Semester Two started normally but as soon as the work started piling up, I became the Donald Trump of mass comm and it drove away all the friends I had made in college, and for a long time I was pretty much on my own. But I still had my high-school friends even though some of them were on the Southern part of the world(Ms. Klutz) or on the other side of the planet(Mr. Holland) or in another state(Ms. Indie) or even still working at Starbucks which is just a 2 minute drive away and attending a college just a drive away from mine(Mr. Family-Man). Towards the end of the semester, work was getting less and less and since I pretty much drove away all my college friends, I hung out with Mr. Family-Man, it started out with helping him and that’s where I met Ms. Shell, she was like a more adult version of Kay Lee and Buddhist, despite being a Rogue Christian I really believed that maybe one day I would just be a normal one and Kay Lee made me believe in that but on the condition that Kay Lee would be by my side through it all. But I soon realised that going for someone just like Kay Lee wouldn’t help me get over her at all, maybe I’ll never get over Kay Lee. Ms. Shell also has been in an almost 3 year relationship and I’m not the type to go for someone that’s spoken for but if she was single, maybe things would be different. But I made a lot of friends from HELP college because of Mr. Family-Man, which is good and bad, I gained new friends I could hang out with but at the same time, I would be caught up in another college’s drama which is bad because I can’t even handle my own college’s drama.

Chapter Another Lonely Christmas wasn’t as lonely as I thought it would be, I started hanging out more and more with the HELP people and Ms. Indecisive. And I just had met Ms. Brooke-Davis, another one of the HELP people and at first, I didn’t really like her, it was just physical, like I would sleep with her but I’d never marry her or even be in a serious relationship with her. I hung out more and more with Mr. Gun and along with that, he would call Ms. Shell and Ms. Brooke-Davis, I actually went to a Christian Christmas Event with Ms. Brooke-Davis and Mr. Gun, it would be the first time I would have been to a club with them. It was fun, she slept over my house and this would have been the second time I’m meeting her, Ms. Bevin kept on asking me to ask her to dance but I knew she was tired, her mind was on her recently ex-boyfriend and I didn’t want to ask her something she didn’t want to do under those circumstances. She sort of opened up to me that night about her ex-boyfriend and that she still cares a lot for him, maybe it was that vulnerability that sort of made start developing feelings for her and me, being the oh-so-honest awkward Chinese boy, I told her to go back to him and give him a second chance because as much I wouldn’t like it, everyone deserves a second chance(yeah, I’m a Jesus-Fucking-Goddamn-Christ martyr). I realised that she’s going back to him and that if she wasn’t, she’s still a young girl who wants to have fun right now, meeting guys in clubs, making out with random people while she’s drunk, that kind of thing. And as I was driving to Maison club, I realised those things and extinguished any feelings I had for her. 15 minutes after parking the car, she calls me and she’s crying and telling me that her psycho boyfriend just hit her, and being the kind awkward Chinese boy that I am, me and the others that came with me went to rescue her. We rescued her and went back to Maison, honestly, I didn’t really want to spend my Christmas Eve at Maison but if she wanted to have fun at the club and if it would take her mind off her psycho ex-boyfriend then why not? And she did. Which made me happy and in that moment I guess those feelings came back. That night, as we were going back, one of Mr. Holland’s old friends asked if he could get a ride back with me, we’ll call him Mr. BJ(I know that means blowjob, it’s done on purpose) so alright, why not? I seem to pass out favours like food rations in some third world country. In the car, he starts flirting with her extremely and made it very obvious as they were in the backseat, I was kind of furious about it. But she wasn’t really into him, he calls her after two days of meeting her for a dinner date and also jokingly telling her that he’s not taking her home that night but she didn’t get it, actually I didn’t get as well. She got nervous about it, so she called me to come along so it didn’t seem so much like a date and I brought Mr. Gun along on their “date”. He brings her to a mamak, which is not that great of a place to impress a first date, in American terms it would be like bringing a classy type of girl to a “great” hot-dog stand. It didn’t impress her at all, the mamak also happened to be one of the filthiest available in this town. We head over to Asia Cafe, it’s a nice place to hang out with pool and foosball tables, mostly Taylors’ students(poser college students) are found there. And I selfishly challenge Mr. BJ to the first game of pool and beat him miserably but with some dignity at the request of Ms. Brooke-Davis. The rest of the time at AC went pretty well, I even enthusiastically play foosball with her and letting her continue a game of pool even though she would have technically lost twice by sinking in the black ball before the right time, and it was great, she was laughing at the things I said and most certainly made sure she had a good time. Mr. Gun had this wonderful suggestion of getting drunk in my room, so we did. Unfortunately, Mr. BJ came uninvitedly and it was just me, Mr. Gun and Ms. B. Davis that got drunk. A lot of things happened that night that I don’t really remember. But she sort of changed in front of me but thank god she had lingerie on instead of nothing. Mr. Gun and Ms. B. Davis sort of kissed each other, I’m not sure to what extent and he sort of was touching her. But I don’t really hold anything against them because you never know what you’re doing when you’re drunk or you know what you’re doing but it seems to make sense at the time of intoxication. The next day, she tells Mr. BJ that she doesn’t see him in that kind of way because she STILL has feelings for her psycho ex-boyfriend. And for some reason when they were talking in Mr. BJ’s car, he sort of made a blowjob sign to Mr. Gun while she was on the phone and that just made a lot of things confusing cause according to Mr. Holland he would never do anything like that but he did or maybe nobody really gets his jokes at all. And Ms. B. Davis didn’t really feel like being sent home by Mr. BJ who’s heart she sort of broke or Mr. Gun who she felt awkward around due to the drunk night. But I still send her home with Mr. Gun riding shotgun, it was an awkward car ride. Mr. BJ also tells her to give her psycho ex another chance cause he’s an idiot. Things were quiet for a few days. Then the whole iPod giving issue came up, I was really confused at that time and very depressed about it because, I promised myself that if I could find someone who gets me over Kay Lee then I would consider not giving it, I made that promise to myself at my park at around 6 a.m and I thought that person could be Ms. Brooke Davis. It would be the start of many lonely nights and mornings just thinking about everything that’s going on or reading Catcher in the Rye. I give the iPod on the 30th of December, turns out she isn’t going to Canada this year, so I’m not completely over her because in my heart somewhere, I’m still in love with her. Mr. Gun and Ms. Brooke-Davis resolve the whole drunken touching and kissing but he soon ruins it by scolding her for getting back with her psycho ex and yeah, she does deserve it but not from him and not at that time. I also check up on Mr. BJ because even though he pretty much ruined the date on his own by trying to move to fast like holding hands on a first date and wanting her to sleep over at his place, it’s still the right thing to do to give him an emo-check. On New Year’s Eve, I had no idea what I was going to do that night but Ms. Brooke Davis, text messaged me telling me that she might not join us because she and her psycho ex-boyfriend had another fight and she felt like being alone but in the end, she just wants to enjoy New Year’s Eve and have fun, which made me happy for her. So we end up at Maison AGAIN, god, am I sick of the place. But I still felt sad for her, at the beginning she looked like she was a million miles away but guy’s start asking her to dance with them and all. So I start being emo “cause you’re just the girls all the boys wanna dance with and I’m just the boy who’s had too many chances” a direct quote from A Little Less Sixteen Candles A Little More ‘Touch Me’ from Fall Out Boy. Yeah, I know I’m an idiot. And Ms. Bevin made things worse. Like why not do something if I have feelings for her? Well, fuck you! It’s my goddamn life and right now I think the best thing I can be for her is be a friend that’s there for her whom she hasn’t accidently kissed her or touched her. So 2008 pretty much started with a Fall Out Boy song line.

Chapter Semester Three and 2008, this is what’s pretty much happening now. Today, I went to college because I thought the orientation for the new students was happening today, me and Ms. Rocker go to college because she wants to check out chicks, yeah, she’s like that and I wanted to see what kind of people are coming to our oh-so-dramatical life of KDU. So in every semester, I’ve kind of changed my image at college, it’s just small things here and there, a new hairstyle, stuff like that. So as I was searching on where I can find places that can make custom designed t-shirts, I decide to call Ms. Q, she’s the type that would know where to get those done. I spend the rest of the night with her to go shopping for stuff and dinner, the custom design t-shirt shop was closed, so will update on that later on. And in that time, we talked about a lot of things. Turns out for awhile in high-school she had a crush on me and at that time I sort of had feelings for her. But I never did anything about it and I just became more and more awkward towards her to the point it drove her away, which made me sad for awhile. She soon started a relationship with Mr. Family-Man and they were good but there were just too many things in the way, like his family. And he wanted to progress more into the relationship and she wanted to slow down on the relationship. He never told me about them being an item because at that time he thought I wasn’t over her when I actually was. She soon broke it off with Mr. Family-Man and he was heart-broken for quite some time, the group of friends from high-school HATED her for that and I’m not saying that lightly. And up till today, I’m not completely sure if he is over her. And now the problem is hanging out with her tonight up till like about 2 hours ago has made me kind of reignited high-school feelings(this was the confession I wanted to make to you on MSN, Ms. Indie), maybe it’s because she knows me so well and I really liked her in high-school. Maybe I’m just on rebound because I’m confused about Kay Lee and Ms. Brooke-Davis. And she and I know right now is the wrong time for this, she thinks I only THINK that I like her, and she just broke-up with her boyfriend and might have feelings for someone else that she had an on and off relationship and also the fact that she’s going off in two months to Australia to be in the same college as Ms. Klutz(oh yeah, when she came back for the surprise visit, it didn’t feel the same, maybe it’s cause so much is going on right now or maybe cause the friendship has just died). So right now, I’m not over Kay Lee, I’d love for something to happen with Ms. Brooke-Davis someday when she grows up and is ready to be in a serious relationship and I could have rebound feelings for Ms. Q. Ah yes, 3 days into the year and so much is already going on. Something tells me, this year is going to be a whole lot harder than last year. And that’s pretty much that there is to recap at this point.

By the way, my new year’s resolution is to be there for my friends and be more like a Lucas Scott from One Tree Hill type and I’ve been pretty much doing well with it so far, it’s making everyone else feel better and getting a voluntary helping hand from me, except me, some days, I’m trying to help people with their problems while mine are building up and keep crashing on me. I’ve also made my computer “clean”, I don’t need it anymore, it’s something grade 7 kids do and I’m already turning 20 by October, time to grow up and stop being a kid. College starts on Monday, having 2 heavy classes in 2 months isn’t an easy thing, I might even be busier compared to last sem. And chapter Semester Three is just starting, if all that drama can happen before the classes even start, who knows what else is going to happen.

” Things aren’t the same anymore, some nights it gets so bad. ” – G.I.N.A.S.F.S. by Fall Out Boy.