Last day of the year
So I gave the iPod to Kay Lee yesterday, erm… I’m definitely not over her. She isn’t leaving for Canada next year, so I didn’t tell her everything. I’m such an awkward Chinese boyy…
About 2 and a half hours till sunrise and since I don’t think I’ll be sleeping tonight, why not just watch the last sunrise of one of the crappiest years, ever.
We won’t hear a word they say
We’re 7 hours till my heart gets broken.
I’ll tell you the story about my night later. Right now I’m spazing out in my room, and also smoking and sipping on hot green tea. You won’t find any other awkward Chinese boy sipping on hot Japanese green tea and smoking overpriced cigarettes at 6 in the morning. It’s iPod day, it’s the day of truth, and when I give it to her, it’ll be the brightest hour of my darkest day.
Btw, Merry Christmas, the lonliest time of the year for some.
“It’s been a helter-skelter romance from the start.” – Forever by Papa Roach.
We’re the new face of failure
Ok, so present situation, two of Mr. Family-Man’s friends are sleeping in my bed right now and I’ve only known them for less than a month. Something’s wrong here. OK, I’ve made up two names for them, Mr. Gun and that’s actually his real name, he’s Korean, and Ms. Brooke-Davis, something about her just makes me think of Brooke from OTH but in a nicer way. And I have a little bit of a crush on her. I have no idea what I’m doing, it’s two days till Christmas Day, the whole iPod-Kay Lee thing hasn’t been resolved, I have no idea what I’m going to say, for some totally idiotic reason, I told Ms. Brooke-Davis about it, I guess cause I’m an awkward Chinese boy.
Oh yeah, today had an anonymous phone call, it went something like this:
Me: Hello.
Anonymous: Hello. *Pauseeeeeeeee*
Me: Hello?
Anonymous: Hello?
Me: Hello?
Anonymous: Hello?
Me: Who’s this?
Anonymous: *Mumble, mumble, mumble*
Me: What?
Anonymous: *Mumble, mumble, mumble*
Me: WHAT?!?!?
Anonymous: *Mumble, mumble, mumble*
Me: Sorry, I think you have the wrong number.
Anonymous: Ms. Klutzzzzzzzzz!*Real name not entered for identity safety of blog*
Me: PFFT! Blah blah blah…
Yeah, so my day pretty much started that way. Christmas is coming soon, results are supposedly out on Monday, trying to get over Kay Lee, family drama, Ms. Klutz with a surprise-one-week visit and etc. Let me give you some info about my dysfunctional family background, my mother comes from a family of three brothers and her parents, herself being the eldest, the eldest brother was working in Switzerland a few years back, he had some background work in the UN, he had a wife and a pretty good job, all of a sudden he disappears, getting divorced to his wife before disappearing and MIGHT be working somewhere in London, refusing to contact the family or visit(I always had a crazy fantasy that he’s some sort of spy for the British government now because of the UN background). I caught a glimpse of him at my grandfather’s wake without anyone else seeing him, that was the first time I saw him in 10 years. Now, the youngest brother of my mother, has walked out on his family, days before Christmas, nobody can contact him or find him. The irony of it is, the middle child, the other brother, whom my grandmother used to crossdress him when he was very young(without evil or perverse intentions, she just really wanted another daughter), he turned out to be the only “normal” one. Yeahhhh, Christmas is suppose to be about family and all, which is why you can probably understand now why I spend most Christmas”es” on my own. And that’s just one, very small part of this side of the family.
It’s 7.30 in the morning right now, I’ve never felt so tired but even if there was no one was sleeping in my bed or if things were under normal circumstances, I couldn’t even sleep, I’ve been using all my sleeping time as reflection and pondering time, and I could not be more than confused.
“In the brightest hour of my darkest day.” – Forever by Papa Roach.
P.S. I already got the iPod.
So we engrave on our graves all the things we want to say
Hello again, you might be wondering what’s with the layout of the blog, well tis the season and of course it’ll be something darker and maybe purple as soon as the month passes. The MCR concert went well except for the rain and the concert ending at least 2 hours before expected. Some of the pictures taken from the concert will be on Friendster as soon as I upload it.
Almost all the FOFs aren’t in the country at the moment, Ms. Indie went off to Holland the day before yesterday and Mr. Family-Man went off to America yesterday. The parental-units aren’t going to be around for the next few days, so this means I’m going get piss-drunk at home! There’s also a whole lot of people coming back like Ms. Ping and Mr. Gay-In-Adelaide. Ms. Klutz is coming back next month, which I’m very excited about.
I’ve been hanging out with Mr. Family-Man’s friends lately and Ms. Elleon. Btw, If you’ve been following my posts, turns out Ms. Shell is taken so I’m just not going to do anything about it, seems like every girl I get significantly interested in to try to get over Kay Lee is already taken.
Speaking of Kay Lee, I’m going to get the iPod very, very soon, maybe tomorrow. And also, I actually made an appearance at the church of whores and liars. It was for a Christmas thing with the cell group and it got boring after awhile so me and Ms. Elleon ditched with Mr. Gay-In-Adelaide. Ms. How is back as well but haven’t gotten the chance to meet up with her as well.
I’m feeling strange tonight, I’ve got a bad feeling about things to come. And I think I might be bored for the next few days. But that’s for another day to worry about.
“And sometimes he thinks that he’s on his way, but i can see, that his brake lights are on.” – Taylor by Jack Johnson.
One awkward silence and two hopes you cry yourself to sleep staying up, waiting by the phone and all I want this year is for you to dedicate your last breath to me before you bury yourself alive
For Christmas, I’m giving myself a new blog, yeah I know, how cheap of myself. The holidays are finally here, Christmas is finally here. The lonliest time of year. The reason for the new blog is cause once again, another personal attack was blown. Honestly, I can’t tell if it’s someone from church, college, some person outside of those two categories or a disgruntled person that I don’t even know.
Tomorrow I’m going for the My Chemical Romance concert and I’m not THAT excited about going even though the concert tickets were 100% free cause 1) I’m not that huge of a fan; 2) I don’t really know any of their new songs and I’m not really fond of their new stuff; 3) Alot of these rempit types really like MCR.
So today, I went to watch The Kingdom with Mr. Family Man(I’ve been hanging out with him lately since the great divide, refer to the old blog), and this movie gets 8.5/10 for it’s plain honesty. Almost everyone from the FOF are back in town except Mr. Holland and Ms. Klutz, so our group has almost come to a full circle again. Which is good cause I think I would need friends more than ever now. And hanging out with Mr. Family Man has it’s benefits, a certain character called Ms. Shell.
Well, that’s all for tonight, I have to reapply my black nailpolish for tomorrow for the concert. Rock on!
“This night’s a perfect shade of dark blue, dark blue. Have you ever been alone in a crowded? Well, I’m here with you.” – Dark Blue by Jack’s Mannequin.
